What I love about Vixens members is everyone pulls together through the good and bad times. We all live in different parts of the world and our love for Nicky has bought us together not only as fans but as friends and I know that may sound corny but so what! Hee hee!
Corelli and Scorpio are right Angie, we are all here, all friends wherever in the world we may be. thankyou for sharing your feelings with us, it sounds like you are beginning to really think about your needs, which is a really positive thing it is good that you are letting your emotions move through you. If ever you need a listening ear, we're here. Sending you some healing hugs, lula x
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the shadow is the greatest teacher for showing us how to come to the light ram dass
Corelli wrote:Sounds like you're depressed but it will get better.
I know it may not sound like it at the moment but it will.
I know it will, I believe it will. Keeping all this pain inside's starting to make me a bit egocentric, as a way to prevent myself from being hurt again. I never was agressive and I need a change to freshen up and catch up with looking at the bright side, as I'm totally positive by nature. I need to go back to basics, hehe. I promise to do my best about it.
Yes...sounds like you need a break to clear your head hun. Sounds like you're depressed but it will get better. I know it may not sound like it at the moment but it will. Anyway...I'm here if you need to chat in private ok.
The thing is that I've been trying to keep the ones I love from harm for the past 3 years or so and I suffered lots of injustice during this period. I think I'm gonna explode. Come on, I'm a human being too, not some of those superheros, I need some attention, a little tenderness. I've been giving and giving away, without asking, lending helping hand every other day, crying, shouting, begging, I've been slowly and kindly erasing myself and turent into a shadow following whoever needs me. I'm afraid I no longer know what I want and what is good for me. I don't think about it. But I don't believe it's good. I need some new beginning. I really, really wanna run away and hide and try to forget everybody and everything and rebuild my life. I don't think I'll be able to make it, but at least I must take some break.
Kim is right when she says we are not too far away from you on here if you ever need someone to chat to. That goes for any of you...if any of you ever need to talk albeit in a post or in private were here to help. We won't judge and we will treat anything you tell us in the strictest confidence if you wish to discuss things in private.
I'm with Lesley in what she says Angie, we are all here for you, and we all go through our difficult times, I am as well, and i'm alot older, we are not too far away from you on here, if you ever need someone to chat to
I've been going through difficult times lately, that's the reason I haven't been posting regularly, hope you don't blame it too harsh on me 'coz I really like all of you and have great time around with ya, but I guess we all have those moments at a certain age when everything seems to go wrong, no matter how hard you try, you just can't make it. I got two more piercing to bring my emotional pain into the real world and always have my past mistakes in mind. I'm sick of everything i'm doing, feels like I'm some kind of machine following some steps that somebody else put instead of me. I really can't stand it anymore. I want to run away from it all, I'm sick of being strong and all that, after all I have my own life and responsibilities to look after, I can't, I don't want to spend my whole life looking after somebody else. I'm attending a student exchange competition in May, I pray they'll pick me coz I really need to throw it all away for a while and take some time on my own. I'd love to go to France for about 5 months. Please, don't get me wrong, I'm not depressed or desperate, as I said, I believe we all go through such moments. You know, I'm getting much more adult and much less child everyday. One's never prepared for that kinda change, are they?
it is good that you are letting your emotions move through you. If ever you need a listening ear, we're here. Sending you some healing hugs, lula x 
